So this job isn't as glamorous as how others perceived. Yes, you can earn big bucks, get promoted and all but how much do you have to sacrifice to get it? 6 days work week or 7 days in certain weeks, work late every other day and it's so difficult to even go back home and have dinner with your family let alone arrange a dinner meet up with your friends.

I felt so tired everyday because it's long hours everyday. I don't get to do any quality things after work because I'll feel so tired, I just wanna rest and not do anything after work and even over the weekends.

Sometimes I really hate this job because I can't even be myself. I'm not sure who to trust because rumors fly like nobody's business in this industry. People will start saying stuffs about you that you don't even know behind your back. Things can be v surface cus people seem to be nice and close to you but actually, it's just for show. It's kind of scary. And sometimes, people will try all means to dig out information from you.

You start to learn how to give all the politically correct answer. Whatever the boss/management says, the only way is to give them the politically correct answer. Oh maybe you can talk a little bit louder if you have the numbers. But if you don't have the number, then you just have to comply whatever they say. It doesn't matter who's right and who's wrong.

It's just so sucky to have so many changes during this period of time. Felt so burnt out here, mentally and physically.

But I'm really glad that I've met really nice colleagues along the way. I would say they're more than just colleagues. It's all these people who made me feel so much better whenever I felt unhappy about work. So thankful for them. But I'll probably need some time to think about this job. I just want to be happy when I'm working,

Sigh. Need a break.