conflict again. wtf. i dont know if im the one at fault or what. i feel hurt. i really really do. i cant believe we're quarrelling over the same issue that we quarrelled 2yrs ago man. where's the trust and faith that we've been talking about? it's just sweet talks. it's just craps. you dont know how hurt i felt to know that you dont trust me. i told myself hundred times not to cry. yet i cant control my tears when i heard your voice. you dont know how i felt. you said i dont understand. but you dont understand too.
damn it. just stab me deep in my heart. fuck.
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
♥ 10:47 PM
Saturday, October 20, 2007
have been playing mahjong for the past 3 days. and i finally won ytd! hahaha. met des to go janice's hse to get my calculator. after that went mustafa with laixing and des ong cus lx wanted to buy mp3. was arguing where to have dinner after buying mp3. des wanted to go macpherson. des ong wanted to eat fastfood. and finally we decided to go rivermall to eat since we're going to des ong's hse to play mahjong. cabbed home after that and the rest went sihao's hse for mahjong!
stayed at home today. watched heart of greed for the whole day. lol. darn nice! and i finally finish watching it. i dont like the feeling when i finished a show or a book. somehow i'll feel lost. hahaha.
oh i got my timetable. damn shitty can. the only thing i can be happy about is that i've got no lesson on fri. but tues i needa study from 12pm to freaking 9pm! no breaks in between. damn. mon 9am-5pm. wed 9am-1pm. thurs 9am-5pm. and there's no one day i can go sch/go home with des.
:D was having bad moodswing ytd. and i think i made him damn worried. that he had to send me many msg to assure me cus he's afraid im thinking wildly. the moment i woke up this morning and saw his msg, i was super touched.
nth else matters (:
stayed at home today. watched heart of greed for the whole day. lol. darn nice! and i finally finish watching it. i dont like the feeling when i finished a show or a book. somehow i'll feel lost. hahaha.
oh i got my timetable. damn shitty can. the only thing i can be happy about is that i've got no lesson on fri. but tues i needa study from 12pm to freaking 9pm! no breaks in between. damn. mon 9am-5pm. wed 9am-1pm. thurs 9am-5pm. and there's no one day i can go sch/go home with des.
:D was having bad moodswing ytd. and i think i made him damn worried. that he had to send me many msg to assure me cus he's afraid im thinking wildly. the moment i woke up this morning and saw his msg, i was super touched.
nth else matters (:
♥ 11:12 PM
Thursday, October 18, 2007
rah lost mahjong again! went xavier's house for mahjong. it must be retribution cus me and laixing lost! hahahah. played till 9 like that and then cabbed home! i promised to give lx a ride and he insisted to pay the cab fare. lol.
no lesson tmr and fri for des. yay! returning books with him and then i dont know what we'll do after that. shall decide tmr! timetable will be out tmr. i hope mine wont be so screwed up. pray hard!
wanted to go to sch with des today. and he die die also dont let me go with him. he doesnt want me to go home alone and says that it's his responsibilty to see me home whenever he's with me!
no lesson tmr and fri for des. yay! returning books with him and then i dont know what we'll do after that. shall decide tmr! timetable will be out tmr. i hope mine wont be so screwed up. pray hard!
wanted to go to sch with des today. and he die die also dont let me go with him. he doesnt want me to go home alone and says that it's his responsibilty to see me home whenever he's with me!
♥ 12:26 AM
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
last day at work! was happy but kinda sad too. happy because i no need to wake up early alr. sad because im alr quite used to working there. and the colleagues there were very nice. lol. bought merci and ferrero rocher for them. waited for my timesheet to be signed after i finished my stuffs anf telling the new temp what to do. gave the choco to keat foong and told him it's for everybody. he thanked me and apologised cus he was rushing for meeting. didnt get to see my in charge! think she was busy with sth else. but she sms-ed me after that to thank me, wish i have a enjoyable trip and ask me to do well in my studies. was damn touched and suddenly, i felt guilty lying to her im going overseas!
after work went to find des! met him at centrepoint then walk to shaw centre to give timesheet. lunched at lucky plaza and movied at shaw house. i swear the cinema at shaw house sucks! it's...i dont know how to say. im not going there for movie anymore. lol. watched ball of fury. stupid but funny! trained back to hg and decided to go library. walked home after that. he accompanied me till 10plus and i chased him home cus he got sch tmr. hahahah.
im wondering what i can do tmr. i hope there's at least mahjong for me to play! i need to win some money. hahaha. oh yah, des got a super good timetable. i hope i got a super good timetable too ): seems impossible cus i got 6 modules and cds to take! damn.
when i look into your eyes and you telling me im your only one, i know, i can never leave you (:
after work went to find des! met him at centrepoint then walk to shaw centre to give timesheet. lunched at lucky plaza and movied at shaw house. i swear the cinema at shaw house sucks! it's...i dont know how to say. im not going there for movie anymore. lol. watched ball of fury. stupid but funny! trained back to hg and decided to go library. walked home after that. he accompanied me till 10plus and i chased him home cus he got sch tmr. hahahah.
im wondering what i can do tmr. i hope there's at least mahjong for me to play! i need to win some money. hahaha. oh yah, des got a super good timetable. i hope i got a super good timetable too ): seems impossible cus i got 6 modules and cds to take! damn.
when i look into your eyes and you telling me im your only one, i know, i can never leave you (:
♥ 10:58 PM
Monday, October 15, 2007
new temp was here today. told him what to do. and then continue doing my stuffs. lol. quite busy. cus things needa be done by 3. bought lunch back to office to eat cus janice not there to eat with me. hahaha.
after work went shaw centre give timesheet. and damn. i still needa go down to shaw centre tmr again. cus my last week's timesheet got no company's stamp! thank god tmr there's desmond to go with me. lol. half day tmr! after that movie/shopping with des :D
im very very touched by carson. i think he really really understand me alot. we confide to each other so much. telling him things that had been inside my heart for so long and things i had never told anyone before. we can always understand how each other feel. he knows how to see a person well. he knows when im sad, he knows when im pissed off, just by the way i do certain things. i dont know how to explain the kind of clossness within us. i might not be able to understand him well. but yes, he's hell important to me! i cant imagine my life without him. nobody to rant to. nobody to talk about the 'secrets that cannot be told'. nobody to give me advices. hahaha.
last day of work tmr! and after that i can slack all i want before sch starts! mahjong mahjong and more mahjong! :D
after work went shaw centre give timesheet. and damn. i still needa go down to shaw centre tmr again. cus my last week's timesheet got no company's stamp! thank god tmr there's desmond to go with me. lol. half day tmr! after that movie/shopping with des :D
im very very touched by carson. i think he really really understand me alot. we confide to each other so much. telling him things that had been inside my heart for so long and things i had never told anyone before. we can always understand how each other feel. he knows how to see a person well. he knows when im sad, he knows when im pissed off, just by the way i do certain things. i dont know how to explain the kind of clossness within us. i might not be able to understand him well. but yes, he's hell important to me! i cant imagine my life without him. nobody to rant to. nobody to talk about the 'secrets that cannot be told'. nobody to give me advices. hahaha.
last day of work tmr! and after that i can slack all i want before sch starts! mahjong mahjong and more mahjong! :D
♥ 10:49 PM
Friday, October 12, 2007
work till 8plus 9 today! damn shag. but no choice. needa be done by today so my in charge asked me to work OT. thank god keat foong helped me to do some of it. if not i think i'll do till 10pm alr. lol. today is not my last day ): monday still needa go work. cus my contract ends at 15oct and my in charge says need to work. and she still asked me to extend for few more days, train the temp alr then go. i just told her the most i can work is till tues cus im going overseas =/
the big office left so damn little ppl. and it's super quiet. i felt so scared and stress. i rush and rush and rush. hahah. i was so super happy when i finished doing it. after that went taka to wait for des. felt super lost there can. hp low batt somemore. and i couldnt find LV. lol. waited for half an hr like that and was thinking if they went off alr. then des and carson came out and they were shocked. luckily they havent go home yet. imagine they go home alr and im at taka keep waiting. des says it's possible cus sometimes he dont notice the sms.
going east coast tmr! with janice, eileen, lileen and kaming i think. long long time never go out with kaming alr! gonna have fun tmr :D i miss mahjong. long time since i touch mahjong! shall play mahjong sooon!
the big office left so damn little ppl. and it's super quiet. i felt so scared and stress. i rush and rush and rush. hahah. i was so super happy when i finished doing it. after that went taka to wait for des. felt super lost there can. hp low batt somemore. and i couldnt find LV. lol. waited for half an hr like that and was thinking if they went off alr. then des and carson came out and they were shocked. luckily they havent go home yet. imagine they go home alr and im at taka keep waiting. des says it's possible cus sometimes he dont notice the sms.
going east coast tmr! with janice, eileen, lileen and kaming i think. long long time never go out with kaming alr! gonna have fun tmr :D i miss mahjong. long time since i touch mahjong! shall play mahjong sooon!
♥ 11:54 PM
Thursday, October 11, 2007
many many things happen. lol. met flowers ytd for dinner. went to HK cafe at cine to eat. as usual, crap alot. wanted to play bb at janice's house there. but then court too many ppl alr. so we just sat at the void deck. talking about life and everything. hahah.
conflicts for straight 2 days. damn terrible. feeling super upset over it. and i really hope things like that wont happen again. i shall not elaborate further. but somehow this made me treasure him even more. lol. met des after work. then went home together!
finally it's fri tmr! last day of work :D and next week im gonna enjoy like mad. hahaha. giving timesheet tmr after work. and i shall think if i should wait for des not. he ends work at 8.30. maybe i can do some shopping and wait for him at the same time!
mabel and janice said obviously i zhong se qing you. im really so sad about it. and i've been thinking alot ytd night. maybe i really did. and i'll meet them more often. i hope they know how important they are to me! i really love them like hell! and not forgetting carson! someone who has been giving me good advices, hearing me rant and then complain the same thing together with me, be there for me all along! i really appreciated what he had done for me. i think he's someone i can pour almost everything to! i love all my friends! and not forgetting my bf too :D
conflicts for straight 2 days. damn terrible. feeling super upset over it. and i really hope things like that wont happen again. i shall not elaborate further. but somehow this made me treasure him even more. lol. met des after work. then went home together!
finally it's fri tmr! last day of work :D and next week im gonna enjoy like mad. hahaha. giving timesheet tmr after work. and i shall think if i should wait for des not. he ends work at 8.30. maybe i can do some shopping and wait for him at the same time!
mabel and janice said obviously i zhong se qing you. im really so sad about it. and i've been thinking alot ytd night. maybe i really did. and i'll meet them more often. i hope they know how important they are to me! i really love them like hell! and not forgetting carson! someone who has been giving me good advices, hearing me rant and then complain the same thing together with me, be there for me all along! i really appreciated what he had done for me. i think he's someone i can pour almost everything to! i love all my friends! and not forgetting my bf too :D
♥ 9:56 PM
Saturday, October 06, 2007
enjoyed today! met eileen, lileen and janice in the morning to get our pay. i need to complain sth. the agency draws 20% of our pay to put inside cpf. wth. im not happy with that. lol. after that went far east to eat. shop abit and then went vivo! didnt really shop. just walk around and went starbuck to chill. feels great to talk to them :D met des and gang at around 3plus and eileen they all went bugis after that.
watched resident evil! err it's just alright. i expected it to be nicer. hahah. jason goh drove sihao they all back and then me and des just hang around vivo for awhile more. shop around for awhile and then went home!
next week's gonna be the last week im working! but i dont think i'll be enjoying the last week of my holiday. alot ppl starting sch alr. lol. shall stay at home and resttttttttt.
sometimes things do change. i understand life doesnt go the way you wanted it to be. but i didnt want to accept this stupid fact. maybe it's true that when you gain sth, you'll lose sth. i gain desmond but now im starting to feel the distance between my friends. and sometimes, just sometimes, i hope time can travel back. im not saying im not happy with des. but the distance between friends is so terrible. i mean.. how can someone soo damn close to you last time suddenly changes her attitude towards you so fast? how can someone who talks everything to you last time suddenly makes me feel so distant from her? i swear i really do treasure this friendship alot. is there anyway i can make time travel back?
watched resident evil! err it's just alright. i expected it to be nicer. hahah. jason goh drove sihao they all back and then me and des just hang around vivo for awhile more. shop around for awhile and then went home!
next week's gonna be the last week im working! but i dont think i'll be enjoying the last week of my holiday. alot ppl starting sch alr. lol. shall stay at home and resttttttttt.
sometimes things do change. i understand life doesnt go the way you wanted it to be. but i didnt want to accept this stupid fact. maybe it's true that when you gain sth, you'll lose sth. i gain desmond but now im starting to feel the distance between my friends. and sometimes, just sometimes, i hope time can travel back. im not saying im not happy with des. but the distance between friends is so terrible. i mean.. how can someone soo damn close to you last time suddenly changes her attitude towards you so fast? how can someone who talks everything to you last time suddenly makes me feel so distant from her? i swear i really do treasure this friendship alot. is there anyway i can make time travel back?
♥ 11:12 PM
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