2011 is ending and it's time to welcome 2012! Life seems to get complicated every year. I read back my post and I realised one of my greatest setback 2 years ago was failing my driving test. That's how simple life was few years back when failing my driving test can even be considered as one of my greatest setback, lol.

There's always good and bad every year. And without fail, people will start saying how much they've learnt each year. Don't ask me, I can't really list out what I've learnt this year. Haha. Probably the only thing that I'm really satisfied with myself will be working at IBM because I received compliments and good comments over there. Compliments work better for me I guess! But other than that, it's disappointments and more disappointments. Felt so disappointed over myself. It's like... I can be better but I did not. Times when I should be understanding, but I did not. The list goes on.....

I've lost someone close to me, just one week ago. The last time I lost someone close to me was my grandfather and that was like more than 10 years ago. I was still a small little kid back then so I don't know how painful it was. This is how painful it feels, to lose someone forever. I still feel the pain and think about her sometimes. Is this normal?

I've experienced things that I've never ever experienced it before. The stress, the burden, the responsibility. I've only mentioned this to boyf, so there are many people outside who don't really know the stress that I've been going through. I know I'll get through this la, it's just something that I don't get to experience in the past, so it's inevitable for me to feel this way.

But I really have to thank baby so much. He's been really tolerant towards me, even though we always had our big fights. There are times when the fight got so serious that we almost had to go on separate ways.. But I'm glad at the end of everything, he's still the one who held me tight in his arms. I'm never a reasonable girlf to start with, I can get unhappy over very little things. I hate it when people label me as 大小姐 but I can't deny the fact that I'm really like that. So he's the one who has to tolerate all the shits. I'm even more stubborn than an ox, so there're many times when I'll insist things to go on MY way. If I want it this way, means I want it THIS way.

I've been repeating so much that maybe all these words sound so cliche. But then, I'm not someone who can really express myself well with the right words at times, more often than not, my actions got misunderstood, We got into big fights here and there so often that he can even joke 'Aiyaa, it's a routine, it'll happen every few months' (it's funny when he said that, but it's totally not funny when we had our fights ok, hahaha). Sometimes I really feel so sorry for him because you know he's a very busy man but I still choose to pick a fight with him. Haiiii, maybe he owe people too much in his last life alrd so he has to return it this life, karmaaaa lol.


Thanks for everything baby! But still.. I wish you can get less busier with work and get more busy with me la!

My resolution for 2012?

-Study really hard and get a decent grade for my exam
-I want a holiday, really badly! I really want to go overseas. Take plane and go far far away. Been planning every year but never once came true haiiii. But now I want it so badly that I don't even mind Genting or Bintan. Yah that's how desperate I am for a holiday!
-Everybody to be healthy. My health is horrible this year. Fell sick so often that I alrd lost count of the number of times that I had to see a doc.
-I want to be better, in terms of everything.
-Lastly, I wish... I don't have to wait that long :)

Let's all hope for a better 2012!