FRIDAYwent to sch for IHT lecture and tutorial. after that went cine to eat with classmates! and we started shopping around. went heeren too. the guys are damn rich can. they wanted to buy belts and went to paragon to shop. they went to shops like CK, burberry, gucci etc. enjoyed shopping with them! was supposed to meet eileen they all for dinner. and im damn late. reach hg at around 8plus or 9. went home at around 10plus. millions of things running through my mind when i was on my way home.
SATURDAYwas sleeping halfway and my bro woke me up to go sing k. so dragged myself up at 1plus. prepared and went to sing k with family! sing all the way to 7 and i think the room there isnt good enough. toa payoh is better! ate our dinner at hg green and i saw weeta and quanfeng. hahaha. reached home and then watched tv.
SUNDAYrot at home for the whole day. damn bored. was supposed to go dinner with des but he wasnt feeling well! so yup, didnt get to meet him.
"sometimes i dont understand why people can get so defensive about lil things. why some people can be so insensitive about things. like the way they talk and everything. i dont know if its the way they communicate, if its becos they have their own insecurities or mayb its just the way they live their ife but always being attacked verbally feels like shit. like what the hell did i do to deserve all these shit.
yes i know sometimes its just joking ard. i laugh & have fun but there are times things are more than joking ard. jokes are not like that. and its not easy to just take it and be okay with it when ure not in ur best mood, when ure feeling down, when ure feeling like no one cares, feeling like shit, struggling inside & then ure attacked again and again and again u just feel like crying. its feels so ridiculous when ure being nice and then get all those shit.
i really dont understand & im so tired of feeling the same way over & over again. so tired of people being nice & mean whenever they want."saw this at eileen's blog. i can totally understand what she's trying to say and understand how she feels. im surprised that she feels this way too. carson always tell me that's life. and yah i do agree. cus i cant possibly bang the table and tell them to stop it. and the only thing i can do is to just laugh with them and swallow everything. i doubt they know how hurting their words can be. so carson always told me to just smile and think positively. yup, im trying hard to and im not sure if there'll be this day when i just bang the table and walk off.
okay i think i shall stop ranting alr. im glad i still have des and my wonderful friends that's always here for me when im feeling so screwed up.
