Everyone acts differently infront of different people because of the image that they wanna portray to people. I've realised that this space of mine has been so emotional. Not because I'm pessimistic about every single thing that happened but because after so long, this became a shoutout place for me rather than a space that records my daily life.
No doubt I tend to act strong or happy infront of people but to him, never. I'm true to my emotions infront of him. These few weeks had been so hectic. But everything was so simple and happy and I'm happy from the bottom of my heart. Whenever things happen, I've always told him all I need is his presence. So why? Why did I overlook the fact that my presence is more than enough?
I don't pray for wealth, I pray for peace and health for my closed ones. I don't mind sacrificing my health or anything in life for the sake of my closed ones.
Sunday, April 29, 2012
♥ 5:44 AM
Monday, April 23, 2012
Sometimes, I really wish I can shut everything off. These few months, I've seen things that broke my heart, I've felt really scared, I've said things that I never imagined them to come out from my mouth. Feels a little tired actually. Still, I'm feeling all so positive about everything. I know things will definitely get better!
Life is short. I really want to achieve something in life. I don't mind risking it and starting all over again because I think that's what life is supposed to be. But I don't wanna do this alone. I've always thought I've found someone who shares the same interest & sentiment as me. But then again, you really can't deny the fact that it's always better to be financially stable especially when we're here in Singapore. Afterall, reality > dreams. So I should feel happy and secure but I'm actually feeling the opposite. I doubt anyone understands how I feel and probably thinks I'm over reacting. It's just different perspective. Okkk, this is side track anyway.
Too many things to be done after my exams. I'll need to sit down and do some serious thinking about my studies. But right now, I just wanna fully concentrate on my exams. The rest can wait.
Hi rainbow, I'm still waiting for you to come!
Bye! :)
Life is short. I really want to achieve something in life. I don't mind risking it and starting all over again because I think that's what life is supposed to be. But I don't wanna do this alone. I've always thought I've found someone who shares the same interest & sentiment as me. But then again, you really can't deny the fact that it's always better to be financially stable especially when we're here in Singapore. Afterall, reality > dreams. So I should feel happy and secure but I'm actually feeling the opposite. I doubt anyone understands how I feel and probably thinks I'm over reacting. It's just different perspective. Okkk, this is side track anyway.
Too many things to be done after my exams. I'll need to sit down and do some serious thinking about my studies. But right now, I just wanna fully concentrate on my exams. The rest can wait.
Hi rainbow, I'm still waiting for you to come!
Bye! :)
♥ 3:22 AM
Saturday, April 21, 2012
That sentence kinda kills me a little inside. The only motivation that I've been working so hard for but oh well...
Alright gonna study for a little while more and hit the sack! Life is stil good :)
Alright gonna study for a little while more and hit the sack! Life is stil good :)
♥ 3:46 AM
Monday, April 16, 2012
Can't find the exact words to pen down my feelings now. And I doubt anyone else will understand how it feels. Part of me feels sad but part of me feels happy. Still hurts when it came across my mind now but this incident just brought us up to a whole new level. It's gloomy now, but I strongly believe that the rainbow is on its way :)
I'm being really positive and all. I'm all ready to fight this!
Hurts even more when I'm not the one who can make him feel better.
I'm being really positive and all. I'm all ready to fight this!
Hurts even more when I'm not the one who can make him feel better.
♥ 2:12 AM
Sunday, April 15, 2012
All the bad things just decided to fall together at the same time. I wasn't a slightest angry, I wasn't a slightest disappointed over it. Sometimes I wonder why humans have to go through so much just to pretend how strong we actually are. What are we trying to prove? Pretence, it's all pretence..
It's definitely one of the lowest moment that nothing else can be worst than this now. This is one of the biggest hiccups but we'll get through this together. I've seen, I've felt, I've heard and I still want. After every hurricane comes a rainbow.
It's definitely one of the lowest moment that nothing else can be worst than this now. This is one of the biggest hiccups but we'll get through this together. I've seen, I've felt, I've heard and I still want. After every hurricane comes a rainbow.
♥ 3:53 AM
Thursday, April 12, 2012
Shall not nag anymore. Maybe I'm just being overly paranoid. How to define addiction? Hmm...
Alright, it's time to get back to studies, burning midnight oil tonight. Go go go!
Alright, it's time to get back to studies, burning midnight oil tonight. Go go go!
♥ 3:12 AM
Wednesday, April 04, 2012
Had a nice and fun getaway with them!
And now, it's really time to mug so hard for my exams! I've still got a lot to catch up so I'm basically racing against time now! I'm so busy these few weeks, 24 hours a day is seriously not enough. Can't wait for exams to be over but somehow I don't want it to come so soon too, contradicting much! Hahaha.
I've a really, really bad feeling after I was told about some stuffs. I've been having the same nightmare recently. Hopefully this bad feeling will go away after some time!
Okay, I need to get back to books now!!!
♥ 12:34 AM
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