And again, it revolved around the same issue. It can be so taxing actually to give myself such a huge pressure. You know that kind of feeling when you got your own plans since some time ago and suddenly, for some reason, you've to start from zero. Yes, ZERO. You just have to abandon all your plans because you know there's some even more important things for you to handle. No, I'm not trying to push blames around or to whine about it, it's just..way too frustrating.
Not that I can't get over it or don't understand the whole situation or trying to indulge in my own self-pity, it's just that there are times when I'll start drifting off and just need someone to pull me back and remind me again. Can't explain how grateful I am to have him around in my life, to constantly pull me back on track and induce those harsh facts into me that I have to accept.
Anyway..
:) :) :)
