today's pe was okay. learnt how to play golf. lol. lesson in air-con room from today onwards! our class is at the dance room. it's very very cosy! =D hahah and the guys were kicking soccer behind the classroom. after sch we wanted to go chomp chomp eat. budden alot of the stalls are not open yet. so we went to the five stars restaurant there eat. finish eating ler we wanted to play bb. but no basketball so we decided to go sk park. lol and we took the wrong bus.
oh yar, ytd after sch we went hg plaza eat. and i saw him! =D im so shocked and happy. lol. but it seems that i miss him more ler =( i hate that feelings. i hate the feelings when i miss him so much yet i cant do anything about it. i hate the feelings when i'm crying and crying for him and yet he doesnt know anything. i hate the feelings when i keep guessing what's he thinking all the time. i hate the feelings when i tried to figure out how much he loves me in the past. =( we are like strangers now. no matter how much i think, how much i love him or how much i do.. i guess he only wants us to be just friends.
i did try to forget him. but he appears too often in my mind. it's so often that it has already be part of my daily routine. thinking of him and the past. perhaps i needed more time. yes i think i need.
youu shall be that person who stays in my heart.
Friday, June 30, 2006
♥ 9:11 PM
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
holidays ending soon! i spend the whole holiday playing and slacking. die die. gonna work double hard after the sch reopens. lol. went genting last week. quite fun lar. hahah though we didnt go outdoor theme park. and i didnt get to meet janice! lol.
hmm been thinking alot these few days. yes ALOT. i still cant get over him. i once thought forgetting him was easy. i thought i could easily remove him out from my heart. i thought i could. but i couldn't. im so numbed. it's like crying for him had already been part of my life =(
he will still be in the special corner of my heart if i were to forget him one day. maybe he has already forget me totally ler. maybe im just a normal friend to him. maybe he has already a girl in his mind. but i still like him alot =(((
i didnt wish to let go. but i know i had to.
hmm been thinking alot these few days. yes ALOT. i still cant get over him. i once thought forgetting him was easy. i thought i could easily remove him out from my heart. i thought i could. but i couldn't. im so numbed. it's like crying for him had already been part of my life =(
he will still be in the special corner of my heart if i were to forget him one day. maybe he has already forget me totally ler. maybe im just a normal friend to him. maybe he has already a girl in his mind. but i still like him alot =(((
i didnt wish to let go. but i know i had to.
♥ 9:27 PM
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