no more pst. no more going home at 9pm on tues! yaaaay! :D finally finally tues is over. half of my stress gone. cus hcde lab test, esfac lab test and pst presentation all ended even though i screwed all of them but still, im really glad it's over! im just left with the maths test for this week. cny next week :D
knowing things that i shouldn't know. acting strong when i doesnt want to. it's so contradicting. wanting to know the truth so much. but you start asking yourself why do you have to know all these when you know the truth. and now, i hope i know nth. avoiding is what i do always. thinking that problems will just go away gradually. face it once and for all. saying it is always easier. doing it is another different thing. i dont know how to face it and i dont want to. hiding all the tears. there's so much behind this smile..
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
♥ 11:36 PM
Sunday, January 27, 2008
FRIDAY
went to sch for my cds project. and we did nth. i went to sch for nth AGAIN. rah waste my time la. met jason ang, laixing, dawn and kazaf then off to changi to work! reached there around 3plus. working as game coordinator. not bad, quite fun. haha. end work at 6 and then went back to tm to have our dinner. was crapping around and then decided to watch 'The House'. so asked carson along too.
watched the movie with carson, laixing, jason ang, dawn, kazaf and xiangyu. i think the show was rather scary la. lol. carson drove jason and lx home. and then went kovan there for supper with carson. chatted and he drove me home after that. was rather late alr so carson actually accompany me to take lift. hahaha.
the ppl actually took out their $50 notes and try to form the longest line!
TUG-O-WAR!
SATURDAY
dawn's bday! met up with them at tm. then went marina square! shop around and then went to starbucks to sit down and rest. dawn opened up her presents and i swear the presents that wanning and johnny and zhiwei gave was so funny. hahahaha. slacked around then went cavana for dinner. got nowhere else to go and we decided to go gay pub!
went chinatown with dawn, kazaf and xiangyu. dinner at maxwell foodcourt with them. it's free entry before 11pm so we went to get out chop first. didnt managed to get in the first time cus the bouncer just refused to let me in zzz. but luckily the second time we go it's the other bouncer and i managed to go in! lol. went back to the foodcourt to continue eating.
was feeling really tired and dawn was feeling uncomfortable + she's carrying too many stuffs alr, so we wanted to go home. but then the last train went off. discussed for a long time where to go. wanted to go hotel 81 then go there rest/bath. but in the end we still went to gay pub. desmond sim and jingxuan joined! played finger guessing, drink and dance. jingxuan was drunk! danced for like 2hrs plus and im tired like hell. haha. the guys there are so good looking can! but then.. aiya too bad. we got to know 2 cute guys, bob and miyo ( or migo?). bob was so high and he just dance and dance non-stop. and he doesnt even look like he's 28. omg omg.
stopped dancing at 3plus then went to eat. cabbed home after that. reached home at 4plus. was freaking tired. bathed and went to bed straightaway. i hope dawn enjoyed herself ytd!
it's gonna be a busy week. i hope this week gonna pass really fast.
♥ 9:29 PM
Thursday, January 24, 2008
skipped lec and we got 3 hours break in between. went to watch 'The Mist'. nice show nice show! but i dont really like the ending. quite scary and it's gross laaaa. lol. after movie took cab to sch and rush like hell for maths lesson.
my bro called me when i was halfway through the movie to tell me his o lvl result. he got 10points for r5. felt so proud of him man! hahaha.
okay im off to rest. project in the morning and working in the afternoon tmr!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JING XUAN and YUEN TUCK! (:
my bro called me when i was halfway through the movie to tell me his o lvl result. he got 10points for r5. felt so proud of him man! hahaha.
okay im off to rest. project in the morning and working in the afternoon tmr!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JING XUAN and YUEN TUCK! (:
♥ 10:54 PM
Monday, January 21, 2008
skipped maths tutorial today. was really tired so decided to skip and slp for one more hr. chatted outside the hcde lab with jinna and alena after hcde. went for lunch after that. then was psps. played some teambuilding games.
met jason ang, laixing and carson after sch then accompany them for dinner. joked and laughed like hell. took 72 back and we're talking about pets. and then..
carson: i've tried raising a persian cat before.
laixing: oh i've tried raising a fortune cat before.
HAHA. see how idiot he is. he's always saying such stupid stuffs. and he never fails to make me laugh like one idiot infront of my com la. cant stand him.
im glad tmr's afternoon lessons. cus im feeling freaking tired. lol. skipping cds tmr and then going shopping with jinna! iht test this thurs. and next week's gonna be hell. lab test, maths test, formal presentation, hcde stage #2 submission. dead.
met jason ang, laixing and carson after sch then accompany them for dinner. joked and laughed like hell. took 72 back and we're talking about pets. and then..
carson: i've tried raising a persian cat before.
laixing: oh i've tried raising a fortune cat before.
HAHA. see how idiot he is. he's always saying such stupid stuffs. and he never fails to make me laugh like one idiot infront of my com la. cant stand him.
im glad tmr's afternoon lessons. cus im feeling freaking tired. lol. skipping cds tmr and then going shopping with jinna! iht test this thurs. and next week's gonna be hell. lab test, maths test, formal presentation, hcde stage #2 submission. dead.
♥ 11:15 PM
Thursday, January 17, 2008
carson got his driving license! i really feel happy for him! :D and im the first one to know this. so honoured la! wahaha. iht presentation finally over! accompany carson and jason ang for dinner. home after that!
going sch to do projects tmr. such a beautiful fri and i've to wake up early to go to sch for projects. lol. tests and project deadlines are coming nearer ):
my class! :D
my grp member, not forgetting peixian!(:
going sch to do projects tmr. such a beautiful fri and i've to wake up early to go to sch for projects. lol. tests and project deadlines are coming nearer ):
my class! :D
my grp member, not forgetting peixian!(:
♥ 11:41 PM
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
finally finally tues over. lessons still alright ytd except for the hcde part. was feeling really lost cus i got no idea how to do. got cds again. and we stayed back to do our report till around 8. then went dinner with desmondsim and friends at bedok. the guys can really eat alot man. shi jun drove us back after that.
short day today. but stayed back in sch to do my revit. thank god there's laixing there. many funny things happen and we laughed like hell. he helped me alooooooooot. really alot. i dont know what to do without him man. haha. went back hg with janice and laixing. then lunch/dinner with laixing. ate mac and we chatted for veryyyyyy long. formal presentation tmr. i hope everything goes well tmr. many many lucks to carson! pass your driving test and drive me out for supper soon!
it's freaking tiring when you tried so hard to be nice to ppl and what you got back was NTH. ppl just treat you like a nobody. be nice to you only when they needed sth from you. so much things happen recently. and i dont know how long i can hold on to. i dont know if anyone knows what im going through now. nobody teach me what i should do next. suddenly, i feel so tired of everything. im tired of putting a brave front infront of ppl. im tired of smiling when i dont feel like to. im tired of holding back my tears, im tired of acting happy...
and i really feel like giving up. i hope it's just pms. everything's gonna be over soon righttt? ):
short day today. but stayed back in sch to do my revit. thank god there's laixing there. many funny things happen and we laughed like hell. he helped me alooooooooot. really alot. i dont know what to do without him man. haha. went back hg with janice and laixing. then lunch/dinner with laixing. ate mac and we chatted for veryyyyyy long. formal presentation tmr. i hope everything goes well tmr. many many lucks to carson! pass your driving test and drive me out for supper soon!
it's freaking tiring when you tried so hard to be nice to ppl and what you got back was NTH. ppl just treat you like a nobody. be nice to you only when they needed sth from you. so much things happen recently. and i dont know how long i can hold on to. i dont know if anyone knows what im going through now. nobody teach me what i should do next. suddenly, i feel so tired of everything. im tired of putting a brave front infront of ppl. im tired of smiling when i dont feel like to. im tired of holding back my tears, im tired of acting happy...
and i really feel like giving up. i hope it's just pms. everything's gonna be over soon righttt? ):
♥ 10:23 PM
Monday, January 14, 2008
went to sch with fatty wee (she's gonna kill me soon =/). it's been a really really long time since i go to sch with her! as usual, lessons are so freaking boring. lunched at ITAS together with desmond too. then went for psps. and huijie said sth that makes us laugh like hell. he's always making us laugh. haha.
was raining so freaking heavy after our esfac lesson. decided to go watch movie. and so, watched One Missed Call with dawn, wanning, jinna, alena, cindy, kazaf and johnny. and johnny was trying to be irritating by scaring me! thank god there's not much ppl inside the cinema cus we screamed so loud. lol. the movie was erm.. alright. not as scary as i thought. and wanning was so funny! went mac and home after that! oh, was talking to jinna about our future. and somehow i start to think alot. stuffs like my career, my own family and blah blah. but then again, im thinking too much alr. i dont even know if i can grow till that age not. hahaha.
tmr's tues AGAIN. can somebody pls fast forward the time to wed?
was raining so freaking heavy after our esfac lesson. decided to go watch movie. and so, watched One Missed Call with dawn, wanning, jinna, alena, cindy, kazaf and johnny. and johnny was trying to be irritating by scaring me! thank god there's not much ppl inside the cinema cus we screamed so loud. lol. the movie was erm.. alright. not as scary as i thought. and wanning was so funny! went mac and home after that! oh, was talking to jinna about our future. and somehow i start to think alot. stuffs like my career, my own family and blah blah. but then again, im thinking too much alr. i dont even know if i can grow till that age not. hahaha.
tmr's tues AGAIN. can somebody pls fast forward the time to wed?
♥ 10:34 PM
Sunday, January 13, 2008
one word: FUN!
SATURDAY
FRIDAY
reached sch, went to the LT, report to them and then went for our lunch. after that gathered at the area and while waiting for students to come, we played games, cheered, mass dance and chicky dance. then me, dawn and wanning guide one grp of student to the LT then went to the entrance there and cheer. saw my bro and nvss students. sad to say, i've to leave at 4.30 cus i need to go off for work.
met jinna at cityhall then walked to chijmes. went up to the upper club and then ys brief us what we've to do. im the dealer of blackjack and jinna's the dealer of roulette. it's a company event and everybody wear till so formal. lol. started playing blackjack with them at 6.30. the ppl there were so friendly! played for one hr and then they got other events alr. the emcee there is so damn funny! so far, i think this is the most fun job that i ever got. hahaha get to play and then the pay's so good plus the working hr is so short. and ys told me there's more to come yay! stay to watch the performance for awhile then went off alr. went ps then met eileen, rayson, janice and mabel after that. crapped and went home after that. was so freaking tired!
my blackjack table!
SATURDAY
last day of open house! need to reach sch at 8am. and i struggled when i woke up from my bed. was thinking if i should go but i still dragged myself to sch after that. went to the LT to gather then off for breakfast. went to the entrance to wait for ppl to come and then guide them to those booths after that. and then went to the entrance there again to cheeeeeer! went for mass dance at late afternoon with all the other sch's guides! was sooooooo high la! cheer alot too! hahaha. went back to engine sch and we did mass dance and engine dance again! after that cheer and cheer and still cheer! and my throat suffered now. lol. after the open house ended, we went to the LT for debrief and then took photos!
walked over to mensa for our free dinner! hahaha. and then... jam and hop! :D so damn high can! we're dancing and shouting like hell! and it's like we're clubbing, lol. had soooo much fun! i didnt regret going to sch! and when we're taking our bags preparing to go off, they played Umbrella and we dump our bags aside then chiong to the area and dance again! so funny la! hahaha. and we're SUPER high! after that we went off alr. was tired like hell. my leg's and back's breaking. went home, bathed and went to slp!
aha headless
our in charge, desmond
us with desmond!
e-guides!
♥ 10:45 PM
Thursday, January 10, 2008
today was fun! first day of the open house at tp. was flooded with ppl everywhere. lol. and then me, dawn, wanning, alena, kazaf, johnny and huijie decided to join the e guides! skipped maths tutorial because we got LOA. met janice after everything ended to go back together. went to hg mall's mac to find eileen to chill.
reporting to sch at 10am tmr. leaving at 5 to go cityhall to work. mini bbq with the girls after work. busy busy day tmr. and sorry jinna for not going shopping with you tmr! i promise i'll go shopping with you soon! this time i'll go for sure ok!
i sprained my neck again few days ago. and it's still freaking pain now. damn.
reporting to sch at 10am tmr. leaving at 5 to go cityhall to work. mini bbq with the girls after work. busy busy day tmr. and sorry jinna for not going shopping with you tmr! i promise i'll go shopping with you soon! this time i'll go for sure ok!
i sprained my neck again few days ago. and it's still freaking pain now. damn.
♥ 10:48 PM
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
short day today! called carson after lesson and he asked me to meet him at the bookshop. i was complaining like hell and he refused to meet me at mushroom cus he says they might be eating at mensa. i walk all the way from one end of the engine sch to the bookshop to meet carson, lx and jason. and when i reached there, they told me they wanna go engine sch eat. i walk ALL the way back AGAIN. and because the canteen was crowded, they decided to go outside tp to eat. SO, we have to walk all the way out to tp. and hor, im not trying to complain. im really not complaining =/
went kfc and xavier joined us. joked and laughed. supposed to accompany janice to joo seng to buy things. but was raining heavily so decided not to go. went home and slppppppp.
projects are piling up. busy week this week. and i think im gonna be busy till all my projects are handed in. oh no. okay off to do project alr!
mentally and physically tired.
went kfc and xavier joined us. joked and laughed. supposed to accompany janice to joo seng to buy things. but was raining heavily so decided not to go. went home and slppppppp.
projects are piling up. busy week this week. and i think im gonna be busy till all my projects are handed in. oh no. okay off to do project alr!
mentally and physically tired.
♥ 11:06 PM
Sunday, January 06, 2008
fullstop.
♥ 10:31 PM
Saturday, January 05, 2008
was looking through those photos that were taken last time. and suddenly, i realised i really miss the past. those memories that i'll remember for life.
- i miss those times janice called me baby/bb/bob/bitch or other weird names.
- i miss those times laughing and laughing non-stop with eileen and we dont know what we're laughing at, we just have some weird chemistry between us, lol.
- i miss those times when me and mabel walked one big round to get back to our class just because she wanted to see alvin and i wanted to see des.
- i miss those times lileen saying stupid things to make me laugh like hell.
- i miss those times talking on the phone with janice till late night that my mum had to think that i was a les.
- i miss those times slacking at hg mall mac with janice and talked about everything under the sun.
- i miss those maths lesson with yuen tuck/corinne sitting beside me and crapped/slp like nobody's business.
- i miss those times kaming tried to make me laugh when im feeling down.
- i miss those tuition times with janice, huijuan and kaming. we just laughed/crapped throughout the lesson. oh, and looking at guys, hor janice? lol.
- i miss those times drawing hopscotch outside our classroom and playing it during recess time.
- i miss those times eating food during chi lesson. we ignored huang lao shi even though he threatened us.
- i miss those times flowers wrote those little notes for me. i still kept them in a box.
- i miss those times working at BioFocus with janice and huijuan even though we're always complaining that it was damn boring.
- i miss 4e3
- i miss those times when our class refused to do our work and slack like nobody's business despite all the teacher's scoldings/naggings. those teachers gave up and looked down on our class.
- i miss the times we were caught for ankle-length socks and had to take our exam barefooted.
- i miss those times skipping maths lesson and then went to toilet to camwhore/crap.
- i miss those times bringing water guns to sch to attack the guys and then got confiscated by mrs chia.
- i miss those times giggling secretly when we're singing national anthem.
- i miss those sunshine-after-rain-quarrels. (im sorry eileen for scolding you bitch. you know i dont mean it. i still feel guilty till now hahah)
i dont know how much these memories mean to them. but should be alot also la hahaha. i felt so sad whenever i think of it. cus i know i'll never get those memories back. now, everybody got their own life and friends. and yes, that includes me. so the only thing i can do now is to smile and tell myself i've got a bunch of very very good friends whenever i think of it. im so glad they came into my life and made such a big impact to my life. if i got a chance now, i'll still choose to go back to sec sch and doing those stupid stuffs with them. i dont mind studying for o lvl again. i dont mind getting scoldings from teachers. they've been such a great friends to me. by tolerating my everything and cheering me up with the little little things they do. i think i've been neglecting so much but they still mean alot to me! okay loooooong post. oh, mc king passed away! life is so unpredictable la. someone who is so healthy can pass away so suddenly. omgomg.
♥ 11:32 PM
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
lesson till 12 today! met carson and then went for lunch together. had a long chat with him. it's been a really really long time since we had such a long chat alr. lol. went hg mall to get his things and then walked around. went home after that!
lesson from 9 to freaking 5 tmr. ohno. but after tmr, it's my weekends again!
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lesson from 9 to freaking 5 tmr. ohno. but after tmr, it's my weekends again!
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♥ 10:06 PM
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
HAPPY NEW YEAR! :D
every year without fail, ppl started saying how time flies. and im one of them. hahaha. i think 2007 pass really quickly. somehow, i dont want it to be over but somehow im looking forward to 2008 because i can officially go clubbing, buy 4D, buy alcohol and do so many things! many things happened in 2007. both happy and sad. certain things are so memorable that i dont think i'll forget!
eileen, janice and mabel came my house in the afternoon. mabel went off awhile later. slacked, ate, watched videos in my room, watched shou zu and then went down to meet rayson and yuen tuck to drink with them. went to a void deck and started playing finger guessing. i was so sway cus i keep losing and i drank quite alot. after awhile we just sat down on the floor not moving. most of us were half/almost drunk. and eileen vomitted twice. went home after that! i've got a bad headache now and im gonna slp soon. and once again, HAPPY 2008!
every year without fail, ppl started saying how time flies. and im one of them. hahaha. i think 2007 pass really quickly. somehow, i dont want it to be over but somehow im looking forward to 2008 because i can officially go clubbing, buy 4D, buy alcohol and do so many things! many things happened in 2007. both happy and sad. certain things are so memorable that i dont think i'll forget!
eileen, janice and mabel came my house in the afternoon. mabel went off awhile later. slacked, ate, watched videos in my room, watched shou zu and then went down to meet rayson and yuen tuck to drink with them. went to a void deck and started playing finger guessing. i was so sway cus i keep losing and i drank quite alot. after awhile we just sat down on the floor not moving. most of us were half/almost drunk. and eileen vomitted twice. went home after that! i've got a bad headache now and im gonna slp soon. and once again, HAPPY 2008!
♥ 12:53 AM
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