dinner with carson, des ang and laixing just now. they're forever so idiotic. hahaha. took 72 home and we finally talked (:

jogging tmr with kazaf and peixian and i dont know who. im so freaking sad that the registration for nike human race run is closed. i so so so SO wanna join la! ):

i realised i always make myself think alot before i slp. i always asked myself the same qns over and over again. and it's so tiring when i couldnt find an ans to it. that freaking barrier that i've been trying to remove all these while. so many times that i told myself i have to be strong, i have to be strong, i HAVE to be strong. but it's not easy. it's not like i wanna be so weak? and it's not like i want the barrier to be there. if only doing it is as easy as saying it, things will be so much easier for me and life will be so much happier. human beings are always so contradicting.
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so many things happened these few months. and i realised how fragile friendships can get. so i always told myself i have to treasure and cherish my family and friends. there's certain ppl in my life that i cant afford to lose and i dont want to lose anybody including you. but sometimes, i'm so stucked and i really dont know what to do. im so afraid that one day i'll wake up with nothing.
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okay i've just written a whole chunk of rubbish.

bye.