celebrated ivan's birthday ytd. had alot of fun at ivan's house doing alot of stupid things :)
as much as i want to stay happy, i wasnt. went to visit my grandmother just now and the adults decided to let her go for operation because she's really in pain. i almost cried when i saw my grandmother just now and i kept telling myself not to cry not to cry not to cry. my grandmother was holding our hands when we're leaving. i couldnt talk to her cus i felt like crying everytime i tried talking to her. she might be going for operation in a few hours time. i really dont know how to describe this kind of feeling. if i can use my birthday wishes now, i want my grandmother to pull through this operation and celebrate cny with us.
i've got no mood for anything now. but i've got a presentation tmr and a interview on tues. how?
at this point of time, i dont need anybody except you.