"Your partner must be the man from whom you can ask for advice and whom you can say your secrets, because he will not say to no one else these things, he wouldn’t betrayed you. It is a true love when you can talk about everything with the person who you are in love with. Exactly the talking is the most important thing for the true love, because when the partners talk, they can find a decision to every problem, which they have. One big part of the couples breaking up, because they can’t or don’t want to talk. When the love is a true love, she can survive everything. Every problem is a test for the feelings and strength of one relationship. The true love is help. When you really love someone you are ready to help him right away and to do everything for him."


My true love

Sometimes, I really think he deserves a girl so much more better than me. It's never easy to be my boyfriend. I crave for his attention alot, even during times when he's really really busy with work and I'll still expect him to meet me up for dinner. I'm never understanding, times when he had to study for his exams/rush for his assignments, I chose to have a really big fight with him. I'm really stubborn, I always refused to leave him alone when he needs the time to be alone, I'll just appear at his house and he got no choice but to meet me and I'll quarrel with him over minor things. I can't stop whining, I cry over little stuffs and bother him with all my stupid problems when he had got even more major problems to handle.

I feel so bad, really bad. He's really busy with work recently that he got so worn out. I've never seen him this tired before. Almost every week, he'll tell me that he'll be busy with work. I should be an understanding girlfriend and take good care of myself so that he won't have to worry about me. But no, I expect him to be there for me cus my grandmother passed away and I was really sad. And I actually asked him why is he so busy when I know he's working really hard towards a better future for us. I even asked him not to be so busy with work and acc me more. Out of his busy schedule, he had to really find time out for me. Why am I such a difficult girlfriend?

Just 2 days ago, he told me that I deserve so much more, someone who loves me more than him. Despite me being such a difficult girlfriend, he's still holding on to me and never once give me up. So why, for what reason should I deserve more? Probably he's not the best boyfriend on earth but he's really doing fine as my boyfriend.

It's the first post of 2012, not trying to make it so emotional but so many things happened recently. I felt so tired, really really tired about everything. I refused to take the first step out and without me knowing, I started building walls around me and stop people from getting closer to me. I refused to open myself up. So he was the only one who had to comfort me when I start to feel emotional. Can't imagine how tiring it is for him.

We've been through and did so much things tgt in 2011. We've created memories for us to remember, the bad ones and the good ones. We've shared all the joys tgt and overcame all the difficulties that came along the way. He made me believe that promises are made to be kept and not broken.


I still remember he was really busy (yah he's forever busyyyy) during the period of this Nike race. But because I told him I want him to join me in this marathon, he promised to run this marathon with me despite that fact that he was really exhausted.









So thankful I've found him. He promised that 2012 will be a much better year! I doubt he'll see this but I just need somewhere to pen down my thoughts. Really thanks for all the things that you've done for me baby! Please continue to surprise me whenever you can (it's been a long time since you gave me surprise alrddddd), continue to love me this much and continue to trust this love like you always do! ♥ ♥ ♥