It's only the first month of 2012 and it's alrd so happening for me. It got me so demoralized about this year, there's practically nothing for me to look forward. Things really get so complicated each year. Suddenly I realized how simple my life was in the past, no complicated problems, all I'm worried about was my parents not giving me the freedom that I wanted.

I failed too badly... Be it as a friend, daughter, gf or whoever. I won't deny how fortunate I am, I felt protected by the people around me but I can't deny how useless I felt too. Probably I really don't understand but they don't understand either. I don't want to just share the happiness, I wanna share some of the stress/burdens too, be it big or small, I'll feel so much better and happier rather than everybody telling me not to worry about anything. How to? Sigh if only anybody can understand exactly how I feel now without me explaining.

I felt way too touched. He's been doing so much more than what a bf should be doing. It's really so much more but I only just get to know this. My tears couldn't stop flowing even when I think about it now. Compared to him, probably what I've done is nothing.

Okay time to stop emo-ing about everything! It's time to brace myself up. It's definitely not a good start of the year but I'll make sure things get better! Gonna fight against all odds. I've strike off all my resolutions for this year and just replaced it with one really simple resolution. I hope this simple resolution of mine can be achieved. Bye world!